SKYNI

As the days move closer to our move to Sweden, I only get the usual questions like

‘Have you started packing’?

‘Do the kids know that they are moving?’

‘When is your last day in the office?’

‘How is Nicke and does he like it there?’

Once, I got the ‘Why are you still here in the office?’ since Nicke has already gone to Sweden.

But the amazing thing is that.. I also realised that quite a few people do not know that we are together. Nicke and I work in the same marketing department and he sat in the next row in the office for the past 2 years. Which makes me wonder if I have been hiding our relationship too well. Some people only just found out recently as they query why I should be included in Nicke’s farewell outings. Today, in the lift, as I was telling a colleague from the same department, that I have been busy planning the move to Sweden. She mentioned that i can ‘hook up with Nicke when I am there’.

I guess I should take consolation that no-one talks about us in the office.

For some strange reasons, I can’t sleep last night. I tossed and turned from 1 to 5 pm and I was really frustrated.

If Nicke is here, he will tell me to get a sleeping pill. The problem is that the pill also makes you half asleep the next day. I can’t go around half awake.

So what’s keeping me wide awake? Am i thinking too much about the house that we are going to buy, renovating our dream house, our lives in the next 3 months, the packing required, how i should pack for the kids and how i hate living out of suitcases. Honestly, my mind was racing.

In such desperate times, I think of the favourite fantasy that Nicke and i share, and a sure way to fall asleep ….and that is ‘What if we win SGD2 million in the Toto?’

I think i should do something about my nose congestion as it could be the cause of my inability to sleep.